Day 111 – Fault Finding Character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live and exist as a fault finding character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always look for something, something, anything, to find fault in others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thrive on finding faults.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react when I see others discussing/gossiping faults about yet another group of people.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist as both the fault finding character and the character that hates fault finding habit in others. the opposing characters.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger and hatred when I hear people discussing faults of others. silently asking the question ‘why the fuck are you blaming/discussing faults of others’ while in that very question, I have pointed out a fault.

I forgive that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize there is a difference between indictment and fault-finding. I see/realize/understand, fault finding is done within the emotional reactive habit of whining, pointing the fingers just to demonize people, for the fun and joy of talking shit about others behind their backs. While indictment is also pointing the finger but done with clear evidence, wanting to end abusing ways and not desiring to demonize the person at fault, it is supporting another as me to stop the bullshit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in rage and anger when I see another is fault finding about some others, in this I forgive myself for desiring to demonize and destroy the fault finder.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, if I seek to destroy all those who fault-find, then, by deduction every human must be destroyed as each one has a fault finding character including myself, therefore I see/realize/understand, reacting in rage towards fault-finders is not supporting, in fact I am only reacting because it exist within me. in this I forgive myself for not realizing, I must stop the very existence of the fault -finding character within me, first and foremost.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to amply little issues in people and make them appear like deadly sins, so that I can crush them and defeat them at last.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate those fault-finders not realizing, all along I have been a fault finder. in this I forgive myself for finding faults in others while totally avoiding self investigation to eliminate fault finding character within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to activate the fault finding character within me from memories.

i forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the memories of people discussing/gossiping about others faults.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to since childhood believe that fault finding as a normal form of communication and therefore copy such habit within me, and live them out physically.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to store a database full of memories within my flesh, and activate them as needed within the present moment as a defense method. Destroy before they destroy me. so finding fault is seeking to destroy before been destroyed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, characters are stored memories that I have accumulated through all things and everything from the past including people, conversations, movies, pictures, discussions, TV, group discussions, religion, politics, books, novels, porn, newspapers, news, etc, everything i saw/heard i have stored as a memory for future reference. Upon seen a fault-finder, I activate a memory/character to see how to react/respond to such a situation and direct myself accordingly. Never, self-directing myself towards it, in what is best for all, supporting the fault-finder as myself to see the situation within common sense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to learn/copy and hold onto memories of childhood where I saw communication as nothing but gossiping and fault finding/discussing about other people. in this I forgive me for holding unto such memories and letting them direct me, instead of me directing me.

I see/realize/understand, I have allowed/lived by memories learned from ALL and everything in this world, and allowed myself to be directed by them. I see/realize/understand, i have learned that fault finding as a normal form of communication, and also learned to react in hate towards who fault find others.

When and as I see I am fault finding I stop, I breathe, I realize, demonizing people by talking their shit is very uncool, I stop this.

When and as I see myself reacting towards those who fault find in others, I see/realize/understand me reacting in anger is only an act righteousness, it will not assist, therefore I direct myself to stop my reaction and breathe, if possible I will direct/assist the being to see how their are engaging in fault finding character, without me reacting whatsoever.

When and as i see that I need to discuss an issue with another, I direct myself to make sure, that i have enough evidence to validate my claim, so that I am not just fault finding, I have evidence in hand to show the being the shit their doing to self and others. In this, i direct myself to not to destroy the being, rather show him/her the way by sharing common sense.

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