Day 151 – Remove the Energy in E-mail by Breathing, write L-mail, Life-mails.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak and write words driven by energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush to write something out because I am feeling driven by emotional energy to express myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to write emails out of sheer mental/emotional energy without considering its consequences to all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to write emails in demand to get attention.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to write nasty mean shit in my emails to get attention, to get a boast for my mind energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the energy in e-mail, its energy-mail, written out of sheer emotional outburst causing harm to self and others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, speaking and writing are the same thing, they both affect the other person equally. within this I forgive me for subtly believing that in speaking I must be more careful than writing, as if the written word is less potent.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize/understand, be it speaking, or writing, I am in the word, expressing myself so it will impact others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to secretly believe that I should more responsible for spoken words than written words, as if written word is not serious. within this I forgive me for not seen that written or spoken, the words are ME, I am expressing myself through my words, as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto guilty memories of the days when I wrote nastiest emails to my brother demanding his attention.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories of the days when I wrote emails out of sheer emotional outburst, the nastiest shit to hurt and harm others so that they will pay attention to me, never realizing what kind of attention will I get after having attacked them so badly with written words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak nicely with people yet write nasty shit to them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that I am fuelling my mind energy through writing nasty e-mail/energy-mail to people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize and understand, I have to breathe, be here, take a pause, take a deep breath in fact, and then proceed to write about the issues at hand without bursting out energy into E-mails causing harm and conflicts. Within this I see/realize that I must write L-mail, Life-mails not E-mail/Energy-mails to support self and others as myself.

When and as I see that I am writing out of energy outburst, I stop, I breathe, I realize, that releasing energy out of nasty emails is the not way, instead I breathe, I write the issues out within the context of self-forgiveness and self-correction to support myself. I see that bursting out energy is not best for all, instead I breathe and remain here. I write Life-mails to self and others as life.

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