Day 219 – Con of Constipation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, participating in the mind is the problem no matter how justifiable or real it may be, the mind has only one interest, its own survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, my participation, following the mind and its tones won’t set the tone right for anything, as the more I dwell in the mind, more shit will be created.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, my bodily conditions sometimes may cause much discomfort during which the mind can swing heavily, in this I see/realize it is my utter most responsibility to remain as breath, because I see I have the past tendency to swing along with the mind, and body conditions, not realizing I can always breathe and be stable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize blaming constipation is no excuse, CONstipation or no CONstipation, it is my responsibility to remain here as breathing/breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to swing along with the mind as I experience CONstipation believing that CONstipation is doing the swing to me, not realizing that I am the directive power not the unreleased shit in my bowls.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give away my power to constipation meaning when and as I have constipation I always let the mind to swing me around, resulting in severe bad modes, anger, irritation, shot temper and depression, whereas all I have to do is just breathe and remain as breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when I am constipated I am in a very cranky state of mind, not realizing, I am allowing it and giving away my power by not breathing.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize I have used this CON of constipation excuse for too long, meaning I always justified my bad modes thanks to constipation, not realizing I always have the responsibility and power to BREATHE here.  in this I see I can direct myself to drink ample water, and support my physical with proper food intake for smooth digestion instead of allowing it to have so much power over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the mind run wild when and as I experience some discomfort in the my stomach area, within this I see/realize the key is to drink ample water and remain as breath without swinging with the mind’s modes and energy fluctuations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, when and as I experience discomfort in my digestive system I allow some heavy thinking to happen, some serious nasty stories run wild in my mind, in this I see/realize that I have the directive power to STOP and BREATHE. At every moment of breath, I have the power to stop and breathe. Not letting modes and mind energies to run my life, not letting constipation to run my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to carry the grumpy face when and as I am hit with constipation and within that I forgive me for creating this grumpy personality of whining, blaming, scolding, angry, and short temper. in these moments I direct myself to drink ample water and support my digestive system, instead of wearing the grumpy mask/personality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as the grumpy guy, the one with the grumpy expression, in this I see/realize I am imposing such self-judgment within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start the blame engine as I put on the grumpy mask/personality. in this I see/realize lack of breathing is the KEY problem and addiction to this grumpy personality believing it to be me. I let go, I breathe, I remain here.

When and as I experience discomfort in my digestive system, I STOP, I breathe, I direct myself to drink ample water as self support, and remain here, I realize I am the directive power and it is my responsibility to BREATHE and not participate in the mind and its swings during constipation or digestive discomforts. I let go off this grumpy personality/mask realizing it is simply what I have accepted and allowed. I stop, I breathe.  

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Day 218 – ‘Feelings/Emotions’ STOP them with Breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that ‘feeling’ is actually form of thinking, therefore I see/realize/ that when and as I am ‘feeling’ stuff, I stop and I breathe instead of participating in the related thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that these ‘feelings’ could land due to food, oversleeping and variety of other things, leading to heaviness that sits in the body triggering thoughts and thinking eventually leading to physical behavior. So I see/realize that when and as I am ‘feeling’ stuff, I stop, I breathe and I direct myself to be here as breath/physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize boredom is a feeling, therefore when and as I see myself ‘bored’ I stop, I breathe. I direct myself to move, get physical when and as I see myself ‘feeling’ bored.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize oversleeping can dump a lot of ‘feelings/emotions’ which can lead to lot of thinking which in turn can create more ‘feelings/emotions’. So I realize oversleeping is not suggested.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my participation in required for any emotion/feeling/thoughts to get going to do its harm to me, so in this I see I am the responsible one to STOP, and BREATHE. Blaming on my thoughts/emotions/feelings or even their triggers is useless, as I am the one ultimately participate in the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, BREATHING is the key, getting out of the mind into real physical act of breathing, and then directing myself to do physical activities instead of being stuck in the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, writing is a great self-support when the mind is bogged down in heavily emotions/feelings/thoughts, as I write/breathe I set myself free from the emotions/feelings/thoughts. So I direct myself to write daily when and as practically possible (in addition to this blog) so that I can get the shit out into paper and see what’s going on. At the moment I am writing with LITE desteni course also, which is really helping me, just writing shit out. cool.

When and as I see myself stuck in the ‘feelings/emotions’ of the mind, I stop, I breathe, I direct myself do physical things to get out of it.

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