Day 315 – more on Self-Responsibility.

I am responsible for myself. I am responsible for what I allow and accept as thoughts, emotions and feelings. No matter how and what another says, it is within my responsibility always on how I take that, or how I react because I am responsible for what goes within me. I mean the grey matter is my area, I am the master of the grey matter, but unfortunately I have given up responsibility for myself and have let the grey matter decide for me.  And that’s a real shame, letting the mind decided what my life will be.

Mind doesn’t have my best interest nor the interest of what is best for all, it has only the interest of its own survival. But at the end, it will even ditch the body, the host, kind of ‘letting the body rot away in the final moments’ (listen to some death research interviews by eqafe.com). Yet all the while, the mind is the master, the mind rules our lives.

So as a responsible being, the first thing I must do is to take control over the mind, meaning, don’t let the mind decide anything for me, its thoughts, emotions and feelings are not my master, I am the master. Taking self-control from the mind-control is a responsibility. I mean, otherwise, other forces will take over my self-control; I will be a mere donkey not a human being. I will be led by others, instead of me leading me. so responsibility is the key, when and as I see myself giving up my responsibility to my mind, I stop, I breathe, seen/realizing I cannot let the mind take over the control (that would be mind-control), I must be the self-controller. And that starts with breathing with awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for myself, otherwise the mind controllers will gladly take over and I will be mind-controlled.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for what I allow and accept within my mind, no matter what. I am the permission giver to my mind; I must pass/approve what goes within my mind that is my responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize either I self-control and be self-responsible OR let the mind-controllers take over and be mind-controlled.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for every emotion, feeling that I participate within me. Its upto me what I allow and what I participate in, and consequently to face whatever outcome may come.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for my life, for my physical mental well-being, I am responsible for my body, my future, my career, for the people in my life, I am responsible for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize taking self-responsibility is actually an act of care even for others, because out of self-responsibility comes responsibility for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that I am fearing responsibility and avoiding responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for stopping my fears, what-ifs from my mind, I see/realize that mind will throw anything and everything at me to dwell in the thoughts, emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize without self-responsibility for my mind, no relationship is ever possible because then I will be always looking at others to care for me instead of me caring for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that my words must be supportive to others, it must assist them, not break them down. That is my responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize everything that goes inside my mind, I am responsible for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for stopping the fears, worries and anxieties within me, it is my responsibility to stop my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that I am responsible for stopping the anger, rage, violence within my mind, in this I see/realize anger/rage/mental violence is NEVER EVER acceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my mind, fear my emotions, fear my loneliness, in this I see/realize it is my responsibility to STOP my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I miss caring for myself because I don’t’ care for myself and that’s why I miss caring for another. In this I see/realize self-care is the first step.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for my life, I cannot waste my life just thinking/dreaming/imagining about one person, I am responsible for breathing and living my life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for my LIFE, and all of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize breathing with awareness is a great act of self-responsibility, not see/realize that’s where self-care, self-responsibility starts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize in breathing with awareness, I become self-aware, I become aware of my thoughts, emotions and feelings, I become self-aware.

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