Day 457 – Resistance to routine jobs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dislike doing routine type of work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist doing routine type of work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that routine type work is boring, not seen/realizing and understanding routine type work gives me the chance to practice breath-by-breath step-by-step self-application in every step on the way, while not wavering or falling asleep on the job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe routine type jobs as boring, therefore resist it and even fear it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear doing routine type jobs, believing if i do such then I am missing something out in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel as if I am less-than when I do routine-type work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only like ‘exciting type’ work and resist routine type work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear following step by step instructions, because of my self-judgment that I suck at step by step routine job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize and understand this routine job must get done, however small or mundane or routine it is, it must get done. in this I forgive myself for not seen/realizing I am only preferring exciting/high-energy activity at work while resist so-called boring, routine type of work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize and understand I can get this done breath by breath, step by step, supporting myself with breathing and being HERE. In fact, I see/realize and understand that routine type jobs give me an added chance to practice being HERE because clearly missing a step in the routine can be consequential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear routine jobs because I fear making a mistake and therefore fear being exposed to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making a mistake, or missing a step in the step-by-step routine type work. Not seen/realizing in fact this is a great chance to practice step-by-step breath-by-breath self-application where I am required to stay HERE and do what is needed HERE at this step.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that doing routine type procedural work will expose my ‘weaknesses’ and will give others ample room to find mistakes in my application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear exposing myself to authorities when I do routine type work. within this I forgive myself for fearing that I am now opening up for more mistakes to happen and therefore more can corner and target me. in this I see/realize the old pattern of fear of punishment is at play.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist, fear and find it not interesting to do routine type work. in this I see/realize I am seeking high feeling energy for myself. Hence letting myself be directed by the MIND, instead of me doing what is required here at this moment which is bit of routine type work.

when and as I see myself resisting routine type of work, I stop, I breathe.

when and as I see myself disliking routine type work, I stop, I breathe and I direct myself to like the dislike.

when and as I see myself resisting routine type work, I stop, I breathe and I direct myself see the chance to practice self-application of being HERE breath by breath, moment by moment, one thing at a time.

when and as I see myself fear doing routine type work, I stop, I breathe, and I realize I am accessing fear of being punished, which is no longer acceptable, so I direct myself to breathe through it and focus on each step of the way.

when and as I see myself feeling boring or dull in doing routine type work, I stop, I breathe, and I direct myself to see the greatness in small things. care in small things, diligence in small things, perfection in small things, in that turning so-called boring routine work into a process of birthing myself as life while doing the so-called routine job.

how much boring can cleaning toilets be day in and day out for years and years? Yet it must be done. so I stop resisting routine type work and direct myself to get the job done. Also, I realize routine job is great chance to practice being HERE, breathe, focus on each step, and get it done correctly and then accumulate step by step till the routine project is successful. So the greatness is the ability to remain here with each step, not rushing, not hiding inside the mind looking for more exciting adventures, rather to remain on each step here, to breathe and to get the job done, that’s greatness in routine jobs.

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