Day 518: how to deal with love & light Newage folks

yogiI forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I don’t have anything to write about tonight, within this I forgive myself for wanting to skip just today, in this, I see/realize and understand giving into the excuse of ‘No topics to write about’ can become a really good excuse. In self-commitment to write daily, excuses are not acceptable. Because once excuses are accepted then basically any little thing can be an excuse, as the mind will find an excuse. Anyways.

Recently I have started a yoga class, this is pretty cool, the only strange thing is during the whole hour, some total bullshit new-age chanting is going on, kind of weird to listen to spiritual chants again. Long before desteni, I was an addict to those music, specifically that singer was one of my favorite kirtan rock stars if you will, famously known as “Krishna Das”. And now listening to him is like too much love and light, can’t stand it. But my teacher is all excited about yoga and potential enlightenment someday. I didn’t get into much discussion with her about the whole love/light thing, I suppose at some point I will, slowly introduce some common sense.

Apparently she grew up in communist china without any beliefs in GOD whatsoever, and now after years walking the love and light thing she is into beliefs and Gods. I am there for a purpose so don’t’ want to ‘rock the boat’ yet. May be at the end of the course, I will ask her to investigate desteni, but during the course I will have to establish some communication/connection. I mentioned to her very clearly, I am not interested in love-light/enlightenment bullshit, I am here to do some physical yoga, physical body movements, that’s about it. At the end of the class, we have to chant “OM” 3 times, which I didn’t mind, I mean went with the flow. I recall the days when chanting such mantra was pure magic, believing that sound to be some divine/sacred bullshit.

Thanks desteni, all that love/light bullshit has fallen away. But I do understand it won’t be easy for my teacher to just drop everything and embrace what I stand for, at least she will get to hear there is “something else”, that is far more real than LOVE and LIGHT. Anyways.

I have to carefully introduce/discuss desteni message with her. At the moment, she might just listen because I am her money-paying student, so that wont’ work, have to wait till the end of the course to discuss these. I remember when I was into love/light nobody could tell me I am in the wrong path, I mean I was pretty damn sure and had so much faith in the bullshit new-age stuff, in fact anything and everything new-age seemed magical. Now they appear like mind-altering drugs, new-age even smell like sewage to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go on the offense when I see/meet new-age folks, within this I forgive myself for not seeing/realizing going on the attack against them won’t take us anywhere, therefore I will wait till the right moment and slowly start discussing common sense stuff, because I realize its not easy to hear common sense from an ascended high-energy, high-ego state. Also I see there is no point in creating conflict about this. I mean it is her process, she has to walk and realize the absurdity of love and light. Common sense cannot be forced upon.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to make a mockery of love and light folks, as if I want to ridicule them, sort of humiliate them for wanting/desiring love-light/enlightenment bullshit. In this I see/realize such approach will not be heeded, and I will only get a wall of defense, instead I direct myself to slowly in time discuss common sense stuff in manner that she will likely to listen.

When and as I see myself desiring conflict with love and light new-age folks, I stop, I breathe, because I see/realize it is not going to get us anywhere.

When and as I see myself desiring to insult or make jokes about love and light shit, I stop, I breathe, because I see/realize that I cannot really assist them if I put them on the defense from the get go.

At the moment, I see/realize that I am going there for physical yoga practice, so I will stick to that for now, when and as a chance come, I will speak about desteni/common-sense stuff. I will not seek to be confrontational about this as I have done in the past.

After all, I was once a Yogi wannabe newage junkie, so I must show some tolerance.

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day 517: breathing with awareness.

breatheI forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust my emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still trust my feelings, emotions and thoughts.

Meaning still there are the days when I allow myself to become low and down, allowing the weight of my emotions to knock me down, instead of living/breathing here as breath, as physical. I mean it’s the mind giving me ample food for thought and then me eating it up, and getting drunk in the emotions/feelings and getting totally lost in them. There is always some little story in the mind to start triggering these emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe these thoughts/emotions/feelings have power over me. I forgive myself for believing that they can control me, rule me over, not seeing/realizing I am the master of my mind, I can choose NOT to participate in them. Yet I do participate, I do think, I do allow the indulgence in the emotions and feelings. So this is great point of responsibility to NOT charge up my mind with these thoughts/emotions and feelings.

I mean more I participate in them, the more they charge up, whereas I want to discharge them, let go of its energy. Breathing is the key here, the decision to not participate in the mind is a decision. This is not going to happen magically, there is no GOD who is going to stop my thoughts/emotions/feelings. And this will only get more difficult as things are compounding and getting worse. I mean me trying to play out various scenes in my head is crazy, its unto me to STOP them. I decide the players inside my mind, I mean its up-to me to put whoever I want inside my mind and have them play, its up-to me to react to their play inside my mind. I mean, I am the creator of my mind’s play, as I allow and accept such nonsense inside my mind.

Breathing is great self-support is this, why not use it, why not breathe to the stomach, as whole breath, full breath, not just shallow breathing. Because when doing full-breath breathing or 4 count breathing, the energy build has no chance to compound, it has to melt down. May be this is something I have to really investigate, look at, take seriously, I mean, I am yet to try this 4 count like breathing on a regular basis.

What’s holding me back from doing it often, if not always? Breathe-in, 3,2,1, hold, 1,2,3, and breathe-out, 3,2,1, basically any such ‘regulated breathing’ forces attention/awareness on it, meaning not AUTOMATIC, unaware. When you are breathing with unawareness the mind has the greatest chance to wonder, do all it can because the host is unaware, lost, sleepy, so anything is possible, as host/me is missing in action, more like missing in inaction/sleepiness.

So I commit myself to take this regulated breathing seriously. I commit myself to add number of counts to breathing-in, and hold and then breathing-out. Basically I flow/follow along with in-breath, hold, then out-breath.

I commit myself to see/realize and understand for mental dramas to happen I must be unaware of my breathing. At the moment, my breathing is 100% unaware, as I have no idea I am breathing. And this must be changed into breathe with awareness.

I commit myself to make a regular self-directed effort into breathing with awareness, as in 4 count breathing or similar. I flow along with the breathing-in, hold and breathing-out. Within this I see/realize the urge to participate in the imaginations of the mind will be very strong, but that’s the challenge to return to breathing with awareness again and again.  

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