Day 699: Facial Expressions

voiceI forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize things that I fear being judged by others to a greater degree are my own self-judgments, essentially I fear my self-judgments becoming visible.

Within this I forgive myself for not investigating my own self-judgments before I about worry what others may think of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the expressions on my face whenever I look in the mirror, and within this believe that others may judge me in the same way. Here its clear I am projecting my view on the mirror unto others, and fear that they might actually ‘see’ me the same way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to often judge my facial expressions as ‘tired’, ‘sleepy’, ‘sad’, ‘depressed’, ‘down’, etc here I see/realize I could work on those, I could put on a smile, yes making adjustments with awareness as to not to give into that ‘natural down/pissed-off facial structure’ I seem to have developed. Like in the activist’s journey to life blog I read recently about ‘hold a smile in your belly‘, meaning, don’t allow your emotional heavy stuff to sit on your self/face when dealing with horses/humans. It takes an effort to step out of it.

So when and as I notice an emotional expression on my face, instead of judging it, or blaming myself, or going into self-judgment, I stop I breathe and remind myself to ‘hold a smile in my belly’, meaning, I will remind myself that I can make adjustments, put a smile on, I mean step out of it, it’s not going to ‘naturally disappear’, almost like I have to re-adjust my facial/muscle structures, like a physical remodeling to correct the facial expressions, call it face yoga.

Years of thinking and emotional consumption can take a toll and yes it can show on the face, like that constant look of being pissed off. I wasn’t born this way, nobody is born mad. At the same time I commit myself to investigate what’s going on’ within me, as to why this particular heavy facial expression is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe ‘well this is how it is, this is how I am built, its in the DNA’ not seeing/realizing thinking and emotional consumption over the years have resulted in this, therefore stopping the mind can correct the physical, while in the meantime I support myself by ‘holding a smile in the belly’.

Investigate practical desteni solutions before it’s too late:

Desteni.org – Participate in Forums or Search Desteni Material.
Living Income Guaranteed – An Economic Solution.
DIP Lite – Free Online Course to get you started with Self Support.
DIP PRO -A Desteni Course for those Ready to Walk the Journey.
Eqafe.com – Invest in a wide range of Interviews to Self Perfection.
Equal Life Foundation – Facebook Stream for Unfolding Events.
Creations Journey To Life 7 Year Process Blogs
Heavens Journey To Life 7 Year Process Blogs
The master of war – “Be a Cure, not a Disease”.
You’re me in another Life – by Bernard Poolman
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Day 698: Is your new project dead on arrival?

GarfieldLazyI forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up on a new project even before I have taken the very first step, in this I forgive myself for not seeing/realizing this particular project won’t manifest instantly or in a day or two, I will have to walk it consistently for at least six months putting few hours every week.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist this because this project involves study, lots of reading, comprehension, trail-and-error, retries, experimentation, taking notes and all that, like a student learning a new craft, I will have to walk this step by step, breath by breath.

I forgive myself for resisting the tedious steps that are involved, instead desire a quick outcome like in masturbation, but I realize there is no instant outcome to this, in fact this will be a lengthy, tedious process of self-patience and self-application.

So why give up at the first step? When will it be acceptable to give up? I realize I have no practical realistic limitations so no valid reason to give up or postpone, other than giving into my fears and mind resistances.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear starting this new project because I fear I won’t make it, I won’t reach successful completion, I won’t reach the orgasmic feeling of success instead I will be faced with defeat, depletion and eventually giving up anyways, so why even bother to start.

Here I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not succeeding and use that fear to not take the very first step, turning the project into a stillborn, dead on arrival, in common sense I see/realize that if I consistently and self-honestly apply myself step by step I don’t know how this process/project will unfold, failure is not an absolute guarantee, I might overcome every tedious step and actually succeed.

So what’s the problem? walking this process will be rewarding, success or not, it will be rewarding to overcome my fears, resistances etc, it will be rewarding to learn, understand, experiment new things, and certainly it will be rewarding to complete the project.

Here I see even the so-called failure can be rewarding because I will have to walk a process to realize failure is a realistic outcome, in that there is very little difference between success and failure. The real failure is not starting the project; real success is self-honestly walking the process/project more so than reaching the end goal.

No point speculating on the final step of a long journey, when I am sitting here at the first step. So I commit myself to walk the steps, leaving all ideas of failure and success aside, just walk the steps, give it a fair self-honest shot.

When and as I face any feelings about failure or success, I stop I breathe, and keep the focus on the current step, this moment here, and not allow ideas to distract me. When and as I see myself becoming tired of the tedious steps, and overwhelmed by its emotions, and want to throw in the towel, I stop I breathe, and I will remind myself ‘giving up’ is not an option, should I reach a wall, I will give myself a month’s time to reassess the project before stopping it, but giving into the whim of fleeting emotions is not an option.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to like things to be ‘easy’, like things to arrive on a golden platter, I realize creation is not an ‘easy’ process, ask any woman who has given birth, things don’t pop up easy, creation is not a walk in the park, not a piece of cake, I will have to put in the tedious efforts to manifest any creation.

Investigate practical desteni solutions before it’s too late:

Desteni.org – Participate in Forums or Search Desteni Material.
Living Income Guaranteed – An Economic Solution.
DIP Lite – Free Online Course to get you started with Self Support.
DIP PRO -A Desteni Course for those Ready to Walk the Journey.
Eqafe.com – Invest in a wide range of Interviews to Self Perfection.
Equal Life Foundation – Facebook Stream for Unfolding Events.
Creations Journey To Life 7 Year Process Blogs
Heavens Journey To Life 7 Year Process Blogs
The master of war – “Be a Cure, not a Disease”.
You’re me in another Life – by Bernard Poolman
#livingincomeguarantee