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Day 386 – Breathe with awareness.

the purpose of lifeBreathing with awareness is missing in my life, meaning, I am not directing that yet because still enjoying the heavenly existence in my mind. What is my fear or reluctance to breathe with awareness? Well it seems I will lose all that I am if I stop the mind by breathing with awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize the reason I don’t breathe with awareness is because I like to keep on thinking, to keep the story alive, the story of me alive, my ego alive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize ‘breathing with awareness’ stops the story of me, which is what I fear, which is what I don’t want to give up, I mean, who wants to give up the story of me inside my mind. My story keeps me alive after all.

Breathing with awareness. Just breathing automatically like a robot is not enough, in this I see/realize 4 count breathing or hara-breathing is an important step to take. I mean, there is no reason for me to NOT breathe with awareness; the only reason is I just don’t want to, because I would rather be in the mind and breathe automatically like a robot.

I suppose I have stated this number of times and still not breathing with awareness.

Breathing with awareness is a shortcut to stop the mind, and so if I am committed to stopping the mind, then, why am I not stopping it with breath-awareness?

I see/realize and understand the reason I am not breathing with awareness, because I have not DECIDED and not COMMITTED to do so, I am still wondering in the heaven/mind. So the solution is simple, face the fear of not thinking and just breathe with awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not thinking, in this I forgive me for believing that I must THINK. So clearly it is a decision, and it is my decision to breathe with awareness and it’s not going to happen magically, there is no god or guru who is going to make me breathe with awareness, so either I breathe with awareness now or fall to the mind’s thinking machine.

When and as I see myself taking the lazy route of not breathing with awareness, I stop and remind myself that this is a decision to breathe with awareness and so I immediately direct myself to breathe with awareness. I mean the reason is simple, the MIND must stop, thinking must STOP. So either I do it self-defectively or goto the hell of thinking. I mean there must be a reason why I haven’t done this up to now, why have I avoided this? Whom am I waiting for to start breathing with awareness? Am I waiting for death to start breathing?

Breathe-in, hold, breathe-out, and hold, time has come to totally stop the automatic thinking machine by breathing with awareness.

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Day 291 – ‘Thinking is Living’ pattern causes fear of breathing with awareness.

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I have been looking at how I am breathing and general focus on breathing. This is because I realize without breathing properly, effectively, it will be a struggle for me to walk this process, I mean, breathing is a basic tool/step in this process. Breathing effectively implies breathing with awareness, in a way assisting and supporting myself to cut down the movie that is running wild.

So today I was relatively successful in putting the brakes on the movie, meaning I was able to breathe fully, with awareness some of the times. For sure this hasn’t become a second nature yet.

Why is it so difficult to breathe each breath with awareness? I mean what’s so hard/difficult about it? In my case, it’s my addiction to think, to participate in the fascinating the stuff the mind is coming up with, I just don’t want to miss any actions, I don’t want to miss any ‘living’, all that cool stuff going on in the mind, my goodness who wants to miss that. So that is the basic fear, that if I leave the mind that I might miss ‘living’, miss the actions, and turn myself into a mindless zombie.

That’s the fear which has been programmed into my mind, to my beingness from the controllers which I readily accepted and allowed. I mean, I honestly believe that if I were not think, that I would miss out on ‘living’. So here living is equated to thinking. I still think, think and think, I mean, I have not stopped entirely yet, still going to the movie so to speak. Well, who wants to miss the show, who wants to NOT live, thinking is living after all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that thinking is LIVING.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I don’t think then I am not living apparently, because thinking is living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I focus on breathing then I am apparently missing out on living, I am missing the actions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I breathe with awareness then I am apparently missing out on living, because thinking is living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to equate thinking to living and in that programm my body and mind and my beingness into believing that thinking is LIVING.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not thinking because apparently if I don’t’ think then I am not living, because thinking is living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the mind control that says “THINKING IS LIVING”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condition myself, my body, my mind, my beingness into believing that “THINKING IS LIVING”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience fear upon focusing on my breathing because I have allowed the idea that thinking is living and therefore I become fearful when not living i.e. not thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear breathing with awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear breathing every breath with awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe living is in the head, in that completely disregard the body, not pay any attention at all to the body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize I am pro-programmed, conditioned to believe that ‘thinking is living’ and therefore I am conditioned to experience fear when I focus on my breath as I breathe. Effectively I have been programmed to NOT breathe with awareness so to keep the mind going and going.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, there is no escape from this, sooner or later, I will have to pay attention, to myself, to my body, to my breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, LIFE IS A GIFT, and breathing with awareness is a way to honor that gift here, and not breathing with awareness is wasting of life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize I have a chance here, I am still alive, I am still breathing, so wasting away the gift of my life is utter irresponsibility, therefore I direct myself to see/realize that I am here as a gift, I am breathing as a gift, and I still have time, to correct myself and be HERE.

Death will be too late to breathe. So I direct myself to stop the pattern of ‘thinking is living’ by directing me to breathe with awareness. I see/realize that this must become my second nature; I must breathe every breath with awareness, not missing out even a single breath.

When and as I see that I am not breathing with awareness, I stop, I see/realize that it’s time to change the pattern from shallow breathing to whole body breathing, into breathing with awareness.

I am here. I am breathing.

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